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Wednesday, 19 December 2007

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    Hold On
    By Good Charlotte
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    just went thru su yenn's blog..i din noe i wsn't d only person wif these things in mind!!just woke up dis mornig..it ws sppsed 2 b a normal day..SUPPOSED i repeat..my neighbour's dad passed away last night..she's the same age as me so we kinda spend most of out times gossiping about school and Craig david(in other words we we waayyyy beyond neighbours)..i mean i reli duno wat 2 say..inder and death??tat's d worst combination u can ever create (wayy worse den octave's law) i noe im sppsed 2 b down dere consoling her or smtg but here i am sitting in my room a coward..i can't even get myself to open the hse door wat else approach her and talk it over?!?

     

    it's so bloody unfair to come 2 think of it..after so much suffering to achieve sumthing in life i found  the bitter truth..daym we're gna die one day so wats d point of even achieving anything??i'd b lying if i say im not materialistic(like every other living human in the world) den comes the story on how u're gna leave everything and just bgone..but i still x get d point??shud i sit at home and meditate or go out and live my life like there's no tmrw??

     

    wat if i'm still not ere tmrw??i mean if a 42 year old man can die out of all a sudden why can't a 17 year old??sum pep can't stop complaining on how shitty deir lifes are..compared 2 what?!?!have i reli done watever i reli wanted 2??have i reli told pep around how much i so lurve em??will it be too late to apologize for all my mistakes??will it be too late to forgive??do i really wna spend my last day at work??

     

    den dere sre sum poeple tat constantly say,,i'm not afraid of dying!!or death isn't scary..i mean i lurve the machoism as much as the other guy does but come on..dig deep down..aren't u reli afraid?!?u're gna leave everything behind..everryttthingg..wat's it like after death?!?is it really cold or u're got never ending sunshines??and u're still telling ure nt afraid??

     

    ryte now i can't bring myself to un wats d real point of living..if ure gna die one day tat is..pep say cherish the ones around u and yada yada yada..will it really help wen it comes 2 death??geez is dis sumkinda dumb test we're put up too?dealing wif deaths??i'm d worst person u can ever talk to abt dis alryte..i can't even cope up wif all the deaths around me(not even my own) and i'm expected 2 console??wat am i sppsd 2 tell hr..WATEVER HPPNED IS4 A REASON!??!HE'S IN A BETTER PLACE NOW?!?EVERYTHIGN WILL B OKIE!??i dun even noe where he's gna b and abt everything being okie??daym tat'll b the biggest lie i've ever told..somehow these chronicles of life and death doesn't seem so perfect anymore*wtf

Sunday, 16 December 2007

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    I Knew I Loved You
    By Savage Garden
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    Welcoming the ants parade

     

    interesting title ey??but seriously dey did have a parade(more like 2 of it) had 2 use d ridsect thingy 2 get rid of em..i mean i've not really fancied ants but 2 kill so many of em?!?!at tat moment of time i felt like i ws one of d chrctrs in The Ant Bully where i ws d BIIGGG BULLY whom got shrinked to an ant size overnight..to all my frens,,incase i get shrinked 2nite,,i just wana let ya'll noe i'm allergic to ridsect!!! (:

    the level of air pollution as taken up another toll!!and no i dont mean carbon monoxide..i'm talking abt methane* geez dis morning i woke up( shockingly) b4 sunrise and had d weird urge to go jogging..i managed 2 pull my mom out of bed and got her in her jogging boots as well and off we went to a nearby field..more like a 15 min ride (:..i mean wat bttr way 2 spend ur sunday morning taking in fresh air tat mother nature provides us with..fresh air..lol..as usual it didnt cum out quite like i wnted it 2 be..d amount of cow shit around!!i mean its so unbelivable tat dey can produce so much of poop in the midst of their morning stroll..i act had 2 cover my nose d whole time thru since d 'fresh air' was waayyyy frshning from wat i imagined..sumhow i've made up my mind abt going jogign d next time..i'm gna carry my own oxygen tank..hah!

    i tawt i wudnt need 2 use extra brain cells to store things after spm..i mean i def killed millions of em while i ws stuck in a place filled wif ridsect earlier..now guess wat?instead of stuffin history i've got to stuff ciggrte names!!each time a cstmr comes and asks 4 cigrts i've got 2 turn 2 my boss wif a help-i-really-dunno-wat-he's-saying-look..i mean i barely understand d diffs but still dey've got so many diffrnt types of cgrts..mayb i've got 2 try out every diff brand..den i'll def rememba d diffs alryte..smart leh

    its 12.20am and my stomach is still grumbling..made my mom go thru ipoh to find dim sum earlier..dne it stricked me..inder ipoh night's life dont sell dim sums..aihss maybe wen i'm older ( and i pray taller ) i'm gonna open a nite operating dim sum stall*

    ps. PLU stands for price look up..1 question down anthr 14 2 go (:

     

     

Saturday, 15 December 2007

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    So Simple
    By Stacie Orrico
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    Wen disaster comes knocking,,

    MIGRAINE!!!Just came back from work!went for yam cha earlier.lol.i can't believe it!it came to haunt me again!after ofclly 1 month and 3 weeks 4 days without it!!well lemme simplify it a little..

     

    ahem have u ever visited the migraine city?no i mean as in the REAL city..only very special people get 2 visit dere. VERRYY VERRYY special people i repeat* (:

    Hell yeah Ie visited that city alright. But instead of acid flashbacks I feel as if somehow the cast of the amazing race is stuck in my head and at times if youe lucky enough you go lank? Like when the television has a temporary breakdown or something. Then the next thing you know is you have friends or strangers picking you up. If that not enough, they give you the panda-eye look like as though youe got a brain tumor or something.

     

    Like today at work!!can u believe it??dey had 2 clse d station tmporarily cos of some power fixture and den BAM!!the amazing race took place again..den came d puking feeling and d 'i-just-want-to-sleep' stimuli.gosh to come to think of it it ws shocking i still managed 2 stand on!(and no i didn't go 'blank')..even my boss noticed smtg ws wrong..aihss..i even did a few reaall dumb mistakes at work!!more like as though i ws drowning in Lethe( or the pool of forgetfulness i've u've read Greek Mythology) Thank God for after 2 whole miserable hours it went away..slowly..like reli slloowwwlllyyyy (:  and i din even finish my sudoku* hah!

     

    But sometimes migraines really do help me out. More like an evil blessing in disguise. Like last year for an instance my school teacher came up wif a history test out of all the sudden. Actually she was just seeking revenge cause no matter how hard I tried I still can help dozing off when she starts talking. I even tried chewing on coffee beans for Christ sake! So there she was like an alien heroine form Star Wars laughing at us mourning about the test. That when my mazing race?began in my head and after going lank?the whole class didn had to sit for the test (: of course I gained a temporary fame and the Savior title which I enjoyed for a few weeks

     

     

    back to the main reason i'm blogging..

     

    ahem

     

    i see,,,i observe,,,,but i DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!and tat applies to a lot of things!!urgghhh..mayb its my dumb chess pricples but i can't help seeing smtg without understanding it..daym..like ciggrtes..why isn't the ingredients printed on the box cover like every other items??whts so diff between each brand??y is the warning frm the govermnt abt smoking printed on all the cgrrts boxes but its still for sale??den y isit tat d ants smell sensory is 100x strnger den ours wen dey're so tiny creatures wif def lil/no stimuli!!do they really shift houses??and if so how abt deir nests??its not re-built overnight ryte?den how can cows rememba directions but most of d other animals can't?den wats so diff between a home made soya bean tat so call does not contain any chemicals with the ones we often drink??as far as i know to avoid fungi growth dey all do have chems in it....i tried asking a coup of things at work 2day but din reli wna push it..bet i'll drive em up d wall if i went on...more like drive em 6 ft down act..aihss

     

    i know i know its pretty dumb but since dere's no more school i've got ntg else 2 think about!no more organzing anything or watsoever..d only things left for a person tats too desprate to kill time is 2 observe..but i cant seem 2 understand!!geez d newspaper shud start printing dese things instead of all dose riot thingy going on out dere..owh yeah btw tmrw night's match is a total must see!!chelsea and arsenal!!!LOL it'll b starting at 11.55 (waaayyy after im back form work) and i seriously dun mind staying up to watch it!!

     

    owh yeah as for my boss waking me up while working,,it almost hppnd 2day!!ALMOST (repeated 3x) orchidians wudn't probably believe d word though..LOL~

Thursday, 13 December 2007

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    The Black Parade
    By My Chemical Romance
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    my working life (:

     

    daym am super dead tired 2nite but i'm gna spare a little time ere i suppose. it's almost like i've abandoned friendster! i'm 17 and working!!of cos it ws sumtg me n my dad argued a lot. somehow it seemd like a miracle when he act agreed on letting me work.(since my 2 elder sisters weren't allowed to)geez*

    back to working life..simply AWESOME!!!....well me there's a little lie in it...or maybe a ton of it..daym its so bloody tiring..the first 2 days were kinda okie..i ws dead bored and had to bit my lower lip contsly so tat i dont fall asleep. i often wondered what it'd b like if my boss had to wake me up one day..wooshh..acid flashback

    den the computer system started functioning again. when my boss told me that i felt like as though he spoke somekinda mutant language. it ws so sickening!!and malaysians!!aihss i'll get bck to that later. somehow it's only been 6 days of me working though i feel its been 6 years. my boss is simply super cekap-ing =) (those who've read my  blog ya'll noe wat i mean) one things for sure i really do admire his height!!maybe a lil jealous but still!!he's so tall!!but no i'm not blaming myself for being short. my parents genes were a little mixed up thats all.

    back to my awesome boss. he allows me to play sudoku while i'm at work!how's cekapng is tat?and he helps me out whenver i'm in deep shit. u noe its so hard to act smile at customers when u're in a middle of your -i'm -so-sleepy-yawn. and some people can seem to get onto my nerves!!i duno why do they have to make things so troublesome!then there's the malaysian walk. i just cant stand seeing em doing it. if only i had inspectors Gadget's gadget,,i wudn't mind a hard shove at them

    im still so dead tired!!of course i've got to slog. wna save money and go japan in april!!hahahx and i wna stand tall ( more like stand short) and proudly tell that i've paid for every single expense there. damn the price you have to pay to keep your pride. btw sometimes i feel so dumb in my working place!i mean my chess playing skills,,thinking,,drama acting ability( i miss those ajinamoto and chettiar days!!) crapping,,imitating,,rapping,,MCR-copyrighting skills are just so..........*error*....................aihss..u get my point..

    As for morons taking centuries at the receptionist counter, Ie gone through worse! If youe observed a petrol station close enough youl know that if the cashier has authorized your pump and you take like forever to reach your car she has to go through the trouble of refunding and re-authorizing. Of course not many of them give a damn of what the cashier has to go through. Somehow I just can seem to understand why they talk so long. I mean the distance form the cashier to the pump ain like it the

    Great Wall of China

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    Ie tried various ways. I went to a different petrol station. Tried leaving my mom master card at the cashier den simply ignores her call. When I far enough Il simply take an abrupt u-turn with the goofy like smile painted on my face. I tried going through my purse for RM 3 worth of coins. Ie even tried to park my car as far as I can and then simply walk the alaysian walk?for as long as I can. Den there simply forgetting to turn off the engine and car lights and simply adjusting the car to be positioned right beside the pump. Ie even tried asking dumb questions to the cashier! Like can u explain to me about the Carltex sticker system? At times it crossed my mind that maybe the pump timer was timed 10 minutes or so. The sad part is that all the Carltex petrol stations have the same system. With the SAME pump timer. Get my point?

    Of course my so called esearch?had to end there. The cashier started noticing me and my moron-like behavior. I bet she even thinks I have a memory worse then a goldfish (theirs only lasts for 3 seconds incase youe wondering)

    Owh ya to add a little spice ever noticed how some people treat tourists like dukes and don give a damn about us Malaysians? It can be a restaurant or simply a amak?stall. Either ways theye treated like the Malaysian version of Shah Rukh Khan or Brad Pitt whereas we, their regular customers, that somehow contributed to the new Benz theye driving get the usual -don-care-if-youe-here-again?look.

    There you have it. The somewhat usual Malaysian lifestyle. Hate it or love it we all have it a little in all of us. Either ways, I just a seventeen year old living the Malaysian dream with occasional nightmares in it (:

    or maybe one day im gonna drop dead in a nearby petrol station. that ought to teach them a lesson

Monday, 10 December 2007

  • Thanks for the memories*

     

    My first post!!or atleast tats wat the title above said :) got kinda influenced by joyce to create an account ere..i woke up this morning with the weird urge of wanting to blog. If tats not weird enough then the dream i had last night certainly was!! it went something like this..ahem ahem i wa ssitting for my STPM(i noe i noe im ony 17!!) and i was getting my results..but the weird part is tat the goverment said my student code wasn't there so i had to re-sit STPM...again :) and i tawt dreaming was 'good' to many of us

     

    holls are killing me!!there's no one for me to irritate..no one at home no more school no more meeting up with friends no more teasing teachers no more skipping classes no more breaking rules no more between sessions makan-ing no more singing in class no more throwing rubbish around no more expressing our arts on the student notice board ( more like vandalism) no more sleeping in classes no more crying out loud during chem/est no more complaining abt petty-cts no more talking during asembly no more teasing everythign the teacher said duirng assembly no more kacang putih man no more skipping prefects check no more challenging each otehrs sarcasm no more GOSSIP!! no more talkig abt people from other schools no more irritating librarian tie no more arguing with the froggie ( 5 orch noes) no more listening to amirah's badminton updates no more calling anyone mumu and no more....EVERYTHING!!!!aihsss

     

    i din really know i'll be missing so much of school..so  much of teachers and frens..5 years wif convent and daym i've got enough memories to last a life time..some gave me joy..some kiddie pleasure..some simply pain* like wen we used to break rules by playing with water balloons den d AWESOME 2006 class party!i almost wish these days didn't have to end. i should have treasured those moments a little more i suppose..I REGRET!!no more going to 5 lily and disturbing suk wai wif caryn and all those pep..no more dumb weird names to remmeba physics..one thing is for sure tat im not gna 4get anything of my life in convent!though i admit i've got a memory worse den a goldfish( theirs only last for 3 secs ) these memories have become a part of me..

    gosh* my first blog and its so tragic!!hahax i certainly promise not to abandon this blog like the previous one..btw..arsenal lost ey to middlebrrgh..WOOSHH..tat ws d expression my dad had..lol now he's downstairs listening to the sports pep commenting on the match,,more like berkabung-ing..btw my ability to create new words are finally kicking in!i can maybe challenge Kamus dewan someday..as for playing chess..suk wai gave me a book 'the eight' and its so awesome!!!i'm loving every word of it..the way they talk abt the jewels and diamonds simply reminds and urges me to rob the bank sooner XD i'm still awaiting any news abt any new chess comps..wna asah bakat sikit..my skills are getting karat-ed with each passing sec..btw nyone readin this..just wna recommend a song..carrie underwood- so small!!meaning is daym cekap-ing tsk tsk tsk

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  • sueislove90
    hey inder right? haha i didn't know you have a blog (: anyway, sorry ya i didn't have cerdit to reply ya. me another number is 0175943248. using hotlink now cause my place cannot recieve any line for digi so, what's your spm results? i got only 7 a's ): hope to hear from you soon! (:
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    hey haha so glad!! my NAMR being MENTIONED in UR blog wor..haha..neway din relaly hav time to act read evrything..u noe la i'm a bz gal =p vil drop by wen i'm totally in charge of da comp which is next yr? haha dun worry i'll drop once in a while..tc!! vil rmbr our sarcasm =p